sometimes we can be the reason for our own defeat. drowning ourselves in doubt then watching it boil over into our everyday lives. sometimes seeing others experience their “moments” can make us question when our very own will arrive. sometimes we look to others for verification and it doesnt last very long. sometimes we just need to dig deep within ourselves and find our passion be the cause for rekindling the flame in our hearts. take full responsibility for knocking yourself down and building yourself back up, stronger and wiser. be your own verification, confirmation.. FOUNDATION. become who God intended you to be, be an instrument of his power. Fight back believe in yourself and become your best Self. ever had food that lacked seasoning?.. bland right.. well think of all that got you here the highs and lows as a spice and all this time its been marinating gettin you perfectly seasoned to become who you’re destined to be.. fight back, pray harder and say “I am..” and become whoever whatever how ever YOU want to be.
I call this photo “october” for more then one reason. Firstly it was taken in that month lol but October 2011 goes down as one of the hardest months of my life, and to be writing a post Nov 3, 2011 shows me I made it, for im still here. This picture means alot to me because just the day before it was taken I was in the emergency room for my little cousin who was shot and was in icu. My friend Abe, who was the photographer told me to reschedule but for some reason I felt the need to shoot and somehow behave “normally” so I did. As simple as this shot is I feel Abe captured a moment ill never forget nor do I want to. In October I faced eviction, my cousin was nearly killed, my mom has been in and out of the hospital but im still here.. stilllooking up. Nov 3, 2011 I still have my home, my cousin and my mother. I made it through October, just let it be a lesson that you can do all things through Christ. And we all will live through our own “October” its not letting the circumstances control you life, your beliefs or faith.. its dealing with it and making it to November.
my obsession with lady bugs run deep, so deep i broke a promise to myself and it was my first tattoo lol. As a young girl the ladybug was the only insect i wasnt afraid of, and it still stands as an adult lol, but i would collect them and ive always found them amazing. At 22 my admiration for the lady bug still runs deep but for different reasons. I love the fact that the lady bug has the ability to fly whenever it feels but only does when it needs to, i believe it shows real power not to abuse your own, and i feel i own that trait <3 plus they’re beautiful bugs, always dressed for any occassion lol
“wear your imperfections as you do your beauty marks.. for they’re both unique in design but EVERYONE has them” - Jsantiago
walking my little one to school today, he noticed a pretty baby chick walking right by his school. He was so excited to be so close to the chick and see it attempting to fly, and so was I. Im so blessed to have someone that finds lifes little wonders so exciting in a world so full of empty value. To see the smile painted on his face was priceless and set the tone to my morning and made me think a lil.. no matter who or where we are in life if we remain “baby chicks” and constantly continue trying to “fly” in our own way.. then we”ll never have a reason to give up… food for thought, you do the dishes.
“The desire to bring you to your knees.. worship and break you down physically
love and lust, lies and trust.. mental movies of us.. drives me insane
I crave to be your love slave.”
Crave
1. feel a powerful desire for (something)
2. Ask for (something)
to ask for earnestly : beg, demand
A : to want greatly : appetite
B : to yearn for
i was invited to mosque to hear a specific message today “divine nature and value of a woman”. I went with an open mind not knowing what to expect, upon arrival i realized there were men and women in attendance the men sitting on the left side and women on the right. The energy was so high and uplifting my exhaustion from 2hrs of sleep immediately diminished. Minister Farrakhan spoke of knowing your self worth as a woman, because if you dont know your self worth how can you expect someone worthy of you. He also stated when you make your bosom, behind or any physical features as a whole the “stark” in your trade you make yourself an object. Defaming or de-valuing yourself as a women only draws the wrong things towards you, your suppose to guard you chastity. He even went as far as comparing the womb of a woman to the panama canal. The panama canal is one of the largest most difficult shipping canals, and you have to go through searches and show paperwork even pay just to ship goods to and from, and in essence he felt the woman should be that mindful of anyone she lets in be it physically or emotionally.”The womb is the workshop of God”. ” you are not limited, but you can limit yourself by the way you carry yourself”. Minister Farrakhan said ” if your not strong enough as a woman to question a man, then you’ll get what you deserve”. I absorbed so much information in a matter of two hours that ill never forget, as a woman if i conduct myself as a queen, easily, ill attract a king but if i sell myself short ill be stuck to settle, and it goes for men as well. I was inspired today and hopefully after reading this post you can be inspired to respect and better yourself as well as those around you and truly get all you deserve. ” As a woman, cultivate yourself in the character of divine”
